Today I was lucky enough to watch myself on YouTube in order to edit some raw video footage into smaller videos for my university job. And it was as horrible as I expected – which is perhaps why I’ve been putting off editing multiple videos of me interviewing various people for the last three weeks.
Looking at myself for 22 minutes made me hypercritical of my appearance. This is what I know for sure:
I have my mum’s nose and my dad’s head. Neither is a good thing. (As I suspected) my head is huge.
At the same time, I also learned some things that I didn’t expect. I got to study my interpersonal skills and how other people (maybe) see me. Watching me talk to someone else was a bit like an out-of-body experience. I learned that I am an OK interviewer – even on camera. I can be encouraging and supportive and actually quite funny (although sometimes in a ‘hey old lady, lay off the cheese’ kind of a way. I decided that I must be the friend with the crap jokes and the sometimes great one-liners. The friend who you always want to stand next to in photos (because my hair + my head = tiny you). Maybe I should actually ask my friends if this is true.
Overall, I’d say it was a horrible yet enlightening experience. An insight to motivate me when I edit the other eight videos.